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the_wanlorn) wrote2004-08-30 10:12 am
the_wanlorn) wrote2004-08-30 10:12 am
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Nightmare
Had a nightmare last night 'round 3am.
Wanted to call up Jon and ask him if he still loved me, but decided against it.
The gyst of the nightmare was that he didn't and that he'd gotten so busy with skool and new friends at Olin that he pretty much forgot all about me.
More indepthly:
I couldn't go visit him for a couple weeks because if random shit, I think mostly to do with Mum. And we didn't talk on the phone all that much. Whenever I told him that I couldn't come up again, he sounded like he didn't really care.
And then one time I was like, "I just don't wanna come up" to see if he actually didn't care or if he just sounded like it cuz he didn't want me to feel bad. And he was like, "It's okay, I don't really care if you come and visit me or not" in a totally disinterested voice. And I was like, "Do you still love me?" and he was like, "Eh..."
:-\
Wanted to call up Jon and ask him if he still loved me, but decided against it.
The gyst of the nightmare was that he didn't and that he'd gotten so busy with skool and new friends at Olin that he pretty much forgot all about me.
More indepthly:
I couldn't go visit him for a couple weeks because if random shit, I think mostly to do with Mum. And we didn't talk on the phone all that much. Whenever I told him that I couldn't come up again, he sounded like he didn't really care.
And then one time I was like, "I just don't wanna come up" to see if he actually didn't care or if he just sounded like it cuz he didn't want me to feel bad. And he was like, "It's okay, I don't really care if you come and visit me or not" in a totally disinterested voice. And I was like, "Do you still love me?" and he was like, "Eh..."
:-\
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jocelyn's mom never lets me see her or talk to her on the phone. the only time we talk is at like 1am on the cell phone. and i try to sound disinterested sometimes just to see what shell do, not cuz i really am disinterested. i guess im prolly looking for attention. i dunno if this really applies to you tho.
anyways im sorry u had a nightmare. is it just a nightmare or do u really think jon doesnt care? cuz whenever i see you two u seem totally happy in love.
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