the_wanlorn | Another Update

Yeah, so I finished my book and I heard Mum talking about something up here that sparked a thought. So I thought on it as I finished my book and decided to come back up here and make a post.

First of all, it's so humid it feels like I'm breathing water. It's only 83 degrees, so it should still feel relatively cool. But no. 65% humidity. Kill me now...

But yeah, Mum just got off the phone with Jeremy (my brother). And she was talking to Da about what he was saying and stuff.

It really bugs me how whenever someone leaves the house or whenever she talks to anyone, she picks them apart and criticizes everything about them. It makes me wonder what she's saying about me to other people. I mean, I know the stuff that she says to my face all the time, but is there more?

And I know that I do it sometimes to. At least, I used to. I'm consciously trying to stop thought, cuz it bothers me so damned much.

Sometimes, I pick one specific trait that I have and try to trace the thinking behind it back and figure out why I do it. I think that one of the reasons that I'm so easygoing is listening to her pick people apart. It's easier to just not care than to pick something and then worry what the other person thinks and what they're going to say about it to other people and all that. I think it's why I regret saying stuff so much, too.

I dunno. Whatever. I guess I'm really just easygoing cuz I don't care. Whatever the other people are happy doing, eating, whatever, I'm happy with too.

This has been on my mind a lot... Expect more about it...

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