It's True

[the_wanlorn]

I cry like a man gets drunk. I know, I know. First of all, you're saying "WTF, Nire cries?" Second of all, you're saying, "And hey! That didn't even make sense!" And, I suppose, it's not entirely true. There is the red nose, the red-rimmed eyes with the veins in my sclera standing out for everyone to see. But that's where the similarities end. (keep drinking) The rest of my face is pasty pale. I'm pretty certain all of the blood is rushing to the nose and the eyes, screaming the need to defend the fortresses, or something. It's pale and cold, but my eyes burn to the touch, and sometimes I'm certain I can feel the tears sizzling down the side of my nose to drip drip drip onto my pillow. (or down the drain) My pillow is very wet. I think I need a new one. My nightmares have been getting worse lately. Oh, didn't you know? I'm Nire the Nightmare Whore. I can't remember the last time I had a dream and not a nightmare. I'm not sure I've ever had a dream. You get used to it after a while. (that's a lie) Heh. Nightmares are the Olsson to my Ehnemark. I guess there's no magic cure when you're shattering from the inside out.

Comments

[taranhero.livejournal.com]

Cheer up, emo kid!

[the-wanlorn.livejournal.com]

What, no "Cheer up emu kid!" icon? I am disappointed in this comment. :-(

[silvergirl42.livejournal.com]

I can't remember the last time I had a dream and not a nightmare. I'm not sure I've ever had a dream. You get used to it after a while.

...Me too. I don't talk about them much on LJ because they're generally disturbing and pretty personal, but...I know how it feels. I nightmare and wake up crying almost every night. Talk to me sometime if you want.