Sad Panda

[the_wanlorn]

 
This semester insits on continuing to shit on me.


In c... c... order from beginning of the semester to now:

-roomies say "Bitch you can't bring your rats.
-uncle goes from "I have cancer" to "I'm dying from this cancer".
-family goes insane
-sister goes insane (of a different variety)
-uncle goes from "I'm dying from this cancer" to "I'm not going to make it to Christmas"
-roomies say "Bitch we know you have rats; get rid of them"

The result of this (mostly the 4 in the middle; the two on the outsides are just annoyances compared to the middle) is that this semester is a complete bust. Instead of my priority being "Do very well in school", or even "Ignore school to get self better", it's been "Stay in bed so I don't have to deal with anything."

So, yes, this is my fault, and not in an acceptable way. If my guesses are anywhere close to right, this is how it will go:

Music Lesson (assuming I get a grade for it): A
Social Fact Vs. Fiction: B+
Probability & Statistics: C (only because he said that everyone is going to pass, and C is the lowest passing grade. Alas, I will still have to retake it, as I need a C+ for it to "count" when it's a requirement)
Systems & Networks: F
Theory of Computation: F

FTF, me. FTF. My GPA is going to plumet. Which, I suppose, doesn't really matter, but it's still stressing me the fuck out. I know I'm going to get screamed at by Mum for it. Which is stupid because, on the scale of culpability for my suckitude, she's at #2.

I have a final in each of the bottom 3 classes next week. I... just no. I should be studying. I should study, period, but it's just going to upset me and make me angry and more stressed and I'm going to do it anyway but I just yeah.

 

Comments

[tehrin [journalfen.net]]

I'm sorry. And here I was stressing about my grades shifting only a little bit from the norm. My dad's always been anal about my grades.

Hang in there. I'm sorry about the ratties.

[the_wanlorn [journalfen.net]]

I used to be like that; my parents are of the opinion that if I try hard enough, I can get all As. And it's true, sadly, so when I first started taking major hits that dropped me from an A to a B, I'd stress stress stress stress about it. Then I got used to my nice mix of As and Bs and now... bah.

Why are parents so anal about grades?? It's so ridiculous. My bro didn't even go to college, and he's damn successful and *rant rant rant*

But, really, the rats are honestly just an annoyance that is being hugely magnified by my other stress. This just means that I'll have to clean their cages (aka do laundry at 3.00 a pop) twice as often as I am now so that they can't smell them, and actually turn on the heat in my room so I can keep a window cracked to let out whatever smell accumulates.

It's just bah. I don't bitch about them drinking and being insanely loud at 4am when I'm trying to sleep, so *rant rant rant*

[missdaisy [journalfen.net]]

Put the rats in their pantie drawers. When they freak out, tell them you heard them sneak into your room at 4:00 am drunk and set the rats free.

[the_wanlorn [journalfen.net]]

ROFLMFAO!

That would be hilarious!

[missdaisy [journalfen.net]]

Ugh! That's rough. I had a huge family sadness my senior year and I'm amazed I even graduated (I think I may have gotten a pity grade or tow, frankly). Really, the GPA doesn't matter in the long run nearly as much as the lessons you learn from getting through shit and coping. Unfortunately the GPA still bothers you in the short run :(

[the_wanlorn [journalfen.net]]

Honestly, at this point, the fact that I'm bothered by my GPA bothers me just as much as my falling GPA bothers me. My brother is a prime example of "If you don't suck, then you can not go to college and still be successful", so clearly it follows that GPA rly rly truly is not the be all and end all.

Pity grades are awesome; they're like saying "Look, I know that if you didn't have alal thise going on you would've passed, so here, and I hope your life gets calmer!"

[doomsday [journalfen.net]]

I'm sorry. I know how it feels to just not have the motivation to study because of outside things being shitty, and to have the GPA-stressing quarters/semesters. It sucks, and that's all there is to it. :(

[pyratejenni [journalfen.net]]

Not much I can say.

*hugs*

[the_wanlorn [journalfen.net]]

:-) Thanks.

[carlanime [journalfen.net]]

::hugs:: That sucks. I have nothing helpful to say, except that it will eventually get better.

[princessdot [journalfen.net]]

Hunny, after more academic probation than anyone else in my family [wait, you're supposed to be the smart one] GPA really doesn't matter so long as you can graduate. [Never moind you know they're the reasons I ended up freaking the fuck out!]