Is this the one step forward or the two steps back?

[the_wanlorn]

Today was a day of realizations. ... Okay, not really. I only had one. But the first sentence sounds grand, does it not? Do you ever listen to a song and say to yourself, "Oh, yeah, good song, true lyrics, deep" but don't really get it? Then later on you're sitting somewhere, doing something (like taking calc notes) and all of a sudden it hits you. In fact, it smashes you in the face with a dead fish, leaving you sitting there in utter shock going "Oh. My. GODS." Or do things like that only happen to me? Anyway. I realized that, right now, no one is going to be proud of me. I'm not going to tell someone something and hear them say that they're proud of me and mean it. It's okay. I'm aware that nothing I do is good enough or spectacular enough for anyone. Since nobody else is going to be proud of me, I'll have to be proud of myself. What have you done today To make you feel proud? It sounds like such a little thing. I've been going around for weeks thinking "Oh, yeah, gotta be proud of myself, gotcha, will-do." But today it hit me that I need to stop waiting for other people to be proud of me to let me know I done good. I need to decide when I done good and be proud of myself. It's never too late to change. What have you done today To make you feel proud? I don't need anybody. P.S. I would also like to make note that Lexi is the awesomest friend ever and is exempt from all rules applying to other people cuz she's just so damned exceptional. That is all.

Comments

[godsaveyourmom.livejournal.com]

I'm proud of you, Nire. Your wilderness survival skills are exceptional! :)

[the-wanlorn.livejournal.com]

It comes from living in the middle of the aforementioned wilderness. :-D

[iheartmunkies.livejournal.com]

Lexi is exempt because Lexi IS the rules. You cant go wrong if you listen to Lexi! Usually.

PS. I meat that to be grammatically incorrect.