FIRST OFF, A MEME:

THE RULES:
• Post this meme and your current wallpaper on your Dreamwidth
• Explain in five sentences or less why you chose it
• Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!

( I am kind of predictable, tbh. )

SECOND OFF, AND MORE IMPORTANTLY. You guys, it's like. A thousand degrees here. (No, seriously. The actual temp topped out at around 91F, and the RealFeel topped out around 100F. I seriously thought that I was going to die.

So I did the smart thing, and spent a large portion of the day cleaning while mona watched Legend of the Seeker on my couch. And then she went home and I made bagels.

Because clearly, the thing to do when it's sweltering hot, is heat up the house even more by boiling water and running the oven. :| And then because the oven was already on, I took out the pizza dough that's been sitting in the fridge for... twoiish weeks? Maybe three? And made pizza to see if it was still good. (Yes, yes it was.) AND THEN. THEN I ATE DINNER. AT MY KITCHEN TABLE. FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I MOVED HERE.

I WAS LIKE A REAL ADULT.

Now I'm, you know. Eating cornbread in bed while I watch TV and try to decide if that rattly noise is just a rattly noise, or if it's a fly stuck in my window that needs killing. But whatever.

I still need to clean my bedroom and the bathroom, and do one more surface clean of the kitchen, so that I can be all ":D? :D? LOOK AT HOW CLEAN MY APARTMENT IS :D? :D?" at soleta and kate. But I am hoping I can get that done tomorrow while mona is here (apparently I get shit done better when there's someone around temporarily for me to ignore, because I am a terrible person I AM FAIRLY SURE SHE DOES NOT MIND THOUGH SO I AM NOT A TERRIBLE TERRIBLE PERSON) so the only thing I have to do on Thursday morning is take the animals to the dog and the cat to the vet because Robin needs shots and Lacey's eyes are acting up again.

wtf my left arm is covered in bruises how did this happen

Okay so over the past four-ish months, shadowkitty and I have been talking about what we wanted from the Lost finale and how we wanted the show to end. Underneath this cut, you will find a list of everything (I THINK, I MIGHT HAVE TO ADD MORE STUFF AS WE REMEMBER) that we wanted.

(NOTE: WE DID NOT THINK ANY OF IT EXCEPT FOR THE ONE I WILL MARK WITH A STAR WOULD ACTUALLY HAPPEN)

If what we wanted actually happened, I've bolded it. ( ONWARDS )

Man I have a headache from crying so hard. I AM NOT ASHAMED BY HOW INCREDIBLY OVERINVESTED I AM.

Internet, I think it's time that you an I took a break. I love you dearly, but if I get spoiled for the Lost series finale I will probably have an aneurysm. So after I post this and respond to one more email, I am closing firefox until sometime around 2pm or so on Monday. No email and no LJ/DW and no twitter and no nothing.

I sense a lot of time organizing my computer to be in my future.

That empty space for May 4 is making me make >:( faces (I will honestly defriend the first person to suggest that I backdate an entry). And now I'm sitting here going "WELL, THERE'S NO POINT IN POSTING NOW BECAUSE YOU'VE MISSED A DAY >:(" I have the same problem with 750words, because I forgot on Wednesday, because I was working on my sister's graduation present. I was making a bunch of these out of 47/64" (not quite ¾") squares so I could make this as a substitute for a baseball.

What I am saying is, I have a real fucking problen with ~all-or-nothing thinking~. HOORAY FOR MENTAL ILLNESS.

Anyway, today I made cupcakes, and man. Four years ago, sifting flour was the Worst Thing Ever. But apparently now, I find it kind of fun. They're for my mum for Mother's Day, so most of them are sitting in the freezer, waiting for Sunday morning so I can frost them.

I saved a couple to practice frosting with, and made some whipped cream frosting (AS ONE DOES) and made some piping bags and learned two things! 1) Leaves are only slightly harder than they look to make. 2) Holy shit I can not make roses at all. IDEFK WHAT THOSE THINGS I MADE WERE, BUT THEY WERE NOT ROSES.

Now most of those are sitting in the fridge, so I can figure out if the whipped cream frosting will hold up well enough so that I can frost them at home on Sunday morning and bring them to my parents', or if I have to pack up my shit and frost them over there. So far, they are still looking good!

THINGS I HAVE NOT DONE YET: Watched Lost, watched In Plain Sight. It appears I'm at that time of year where the idea of watching a show that I really love makes me incredibly anxious. It's such a pain in the ass.

Oh my god I did not realize that I did not post this entry when I finished it. D: D: D: OOPS.

FUCK YEAH ATTENTION WHORE MEMES!

❝i've always wanted to tell you❞

AND THIS ONE:

Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on alfalfa, favourite type of underwear, graphic techniques, etc. Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other. Fannish topics welcomed.

( Lost 6x13 )

( Knowledge, by Louise Bogan )

You guys, I'm not going to talk about In Plain Sight today. Not because I don't want to (BECAUSE, BELIEVE ME, I HAVE FOUND MORE REASONS TO HATE THIS FANDOM) but it is more satisfying to talk to my friends about it and apparently I get self-conscious when I know I'm posting rants about a fandom 90% of my flist is unfamiliar with. What the hell is up with that?

TODAY HOWEVER I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED A MINOR ACCOMPLISHMENT. I nicked a base from islandmysteries and a tweet from fox1013 and ended up with this:



I am amaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing.

( A Kosmos, by Rosanna Warren )

:( When I get into a new fandom, I always forget how much I fucking hate general fandom. And then I find bunches of comments on posts where it's like "Ohhhhhhh right, disliking characters based on their actions is ridiculous! Much better to hate them for being women!" And "Yeahhhhhhh, totally forgot that hating a lovable, adorable character just because he gets in the way of your [CLEARLY VASTLY SUPERIOR, I WILL ADMIT] ship is totally okay."

Every time I think I'm getting really fucking crazy about a show, and really fucking crazy and overinvested in a ship, I see shit like this, and go "Oh, right. I may be crazy and overinvested, and I may think that Mary/Raph is awful, but I still fucking love Raph and don't want him to leave the show, so at least I'm not a terrible person."

Speaking of crazy and overinvested, I haven't fallen this hard for a show this fast in yearrrrrs. I leave VLC open, regardless of whether I've got something playing or not, unless I shut down the computer, so things aggregate in the playlist. Last time I turned off the computer was Saturday. Here is the playlist of things I've watched since Saturday (IT IS SUPER LONG):

( SUUUUPER LONG )

I THINK I HAVE A BIT OF A PROBLEM. But also, I just watched Lost, so it is time to talk about that!

( Spoilers for Lost 6x12 )

( One Art, by Elizabeth Bishop )

So instead of doing any work today, and instead of continuing to watch In Plain Sight, I am... rewatching most of season one, this time along with shadowkitty. I MAKE EXCELLENT LIFE DECISIONS, INTERNET.

"I didn't particularly appreciate our stewardess hitting on my travel companion, just assuming we weren't a couple" still makes me lol and lol and lol because, Mary, you and Marshall aren't a couple. Also, the way Mary's kind of surprised whenever anyone tells her she's hot/pretty, is hilarious. I GET THE SENSE THAT SHE IS USUALLY TOO BUSY BEING A DICK TO PEOPLE TO GIVE THEM TIME TO COMPLIMENT HER. JUST A BIT.

So, yeah, how awesome would pretending-to-be-married/together fic be for any fandom this fandom? (HINT: TOTALLY AWESOME.) Someone should get right on that.

( Also, have a meme that lets me talk about my favorite TV shows some more! )

( Jalopy, by Lori Desrosiers )

WHO HAS TWO THUMBS AND JUST SUBMITTED HER GSOC PROPOSAL TO WORK WITH DREAMWIDTH?

THIS GIRL!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD kate looked over it for me last night, and I made all the changes today and she looked over it again because she is the best friend ever and I fixed the little stuff and submitted it! I DO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WORKING ON IT ANY MORE. And I can concentrate on making content for Three Weeks of Dreamwidth!

MAN NOT ONLY DID I WATCH LOST THIS MORNING, BUT I SUBMITTED MY PROPOSAL, AND NOW I AM GOING TO WATCH DOCTOR WHO AGAIN. INTERNET, THIS IS THE BEST DAY. I am also going to make pizza for dinner now! And the sunburn on my arm that I got this morning in the 35-minute drive to school (because my car has no AC so I keep the windows open and hang my arm out of the car because I am cool like that) doesn't even hurt that bad! DEFINITELY THE BEST DAY.

(Still flaily over Lost. To the point where I tried to explain what happened to shoiryu because I wanted to flail at someone who was not SK, and I am pretty sure everything I said was incomprehensible. BUT SHE WAS SUPPORTIVE OF MY FLAILING, SO, YOU KNOW. GOOD FRIEND THERE.)

Oh Castle, I can't believe that, while Beckett is being all detective-y, you are playing Indiana Jones. :D: I DESPERATELY WANT FIC ABOUT BECKETT AND ESPOSITO AND RYAN TROLLING CASTLE. DESPERATELY.

HEY INTERNET, GUESS WHAT MINOR TASK I LEARNED TO DO TODAY THAT I AM RIDICULOUSLY PROUD OF? If you guessed "make outlined text in GIMP" you are correct! So I have been making things like this and this. So I guess I know what I am going to be doing for the next forever. :D :D :D

I wish I had more interesting things to tell you, internet, but my life is not very interesting lately.

GUESS WHO IS WRITING BURN NOTICE FIC AS WE SPEAK? Well. It's not me. But theoretically it could be. In a few minutes. Maybe. WOOOOO.

( Dirge for a Joker, by Sylvia Plath )

I had this great post to post to you, internet, but now I can't remember it. >:( When will I learn to write this shit down?

I do not have much to say to you about Lost this week, although I had more than I thought I would! Also, I am super sad that there are fewer than ten hours of Lost left, forever. :(

( Spoilers up to Lost 6x10 )

ALSO INTERNET, SPEAKING OF LOST, I made one of those Mean Girls things for Ben, SORT OF, I just need to put it together. BECAUSE I AM GREAT LIKE THAT. EVEN THOUGH, AFTER DOING SOME RESEARCH (WHICH MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE DONE BEFORE CHOOSING THE CAPS), IT APPEARS I FAIL AT PROPERLY CHOOSING PICTURES FOR MACROS, BUT WTFEVER I CAN BUCK THE TREND IF I WANT TO.

Man, I can't believe I'm sitting here going "Self, you have gotten As on both papers before this, and the midterm, and the two mini assignments at the beginning of the semester! Clearly you don't need to do this paper because you'll probably still pass the class!" OH, SELF, NO. :( So I am going to make dinner and let the dog out and marvel over how hilariously flooded all the low points in the yard are and do that paper.

I almost posted this with the bits of half-written entries I keep stored in Semagic all the time at the end. OOPS. :(

Whenever Harry makes an ~entrance~, most of me is going "Oh, Harry, you're nowhere near as cool as you think you are, ahahahaha." But a tiny part of me is also going "oh my god that was so badass oh my god".

And, okay internet, I cede to your wisdom. Book nine, did make me ship Harry/Marcone a little. But you know what it made me ship even more? (HINT: MURPHY/HARRY OH MY GOD *_________*) "After kneeling down to give Mouse his hug, she surprised me. I got one, too. I surprised myself with how hard I hugged back." THERE IS NOT ENOUGH "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW" IN THE WORLD, INTERNET. NOT ENOUGH IN THE WORLD.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

I've been excited all day because, fuck yeah! Tomorrow is Lostnesday! WOOOOO! And then I realize that, no, today is not, in fact, Tuesday. It is Monday. :( Also, man. I am remaining so ridiculously staunchly unspoiled for Lost. Like, I fucking love spoilers! Spoilers are great! And yet... I don't want to know what happens on Lost until it happens. Even though it is making me kind of anxious because what if Benry dies??? I won't know until it happens and I'm sitting there sobbing in front of the computer!

I am pretty sure they are filming the finale this week, I think. THAT MAKES ME KIND OF NERVOUS. OH GOD. D:

55% of my Pictures folder on this computer is entirely Lost caps and .gifs. Embarrassing.

Last night, I couldn't remember if I posted a post that day or not, so I was sitting here at 10PM going "THINK, SELF. THINK OF SOMETHING TO SAY. COME ON, MAYBE YOU CAN TALK ABOUT LOS- oh, right."

Man, my laptop hasn't overheated once since I took it apart to clean out the fan. :( I am the worst laptop mommy. Not even when I spent a while clipping all the Chuck Finley bits of Burn Notice that I had the patience to go through. FYI INTERNET I AM STILL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THE... MAN? CONCEPT? Write a fic called "Five Things Chuck Finley Didn't Do (And One He Did)" Y/Y?

I keep thinking that I want to apply to Google's Summer of Code thing, except I am stopped every time I start poking at an application by "Well they're not going to pick you anyway, so why bother?" Why am I so crazy? So, you know, looks like I'm not going to be bothering.

Today I am going to actually get up and find the CDs I want to listen to instead of desperately trying to find torrents because I'm too lazy to dig out my external drive. SPEAKING OF MUSIC does anyone have Russell Gunn's "The Concept"? I have to write a paper on it and while, theoretically, we will be able to get enough out of the professor playing it in class, I would feel better if I had a copy I could poke at at home where I can actually concentrate on what's going on in it, and my prof just gave me a "..." look when I asked if I could get a copy of the song. DUDE, RIPPING AN MP3 AND EMAILING IT IS NOT DIFFICULT. IF I HAD A LAPTOP WITH A WORKING CD DRIVE I WOULD EVEN DO IT IN CLASS.

Okay, back to read more Dresden Files. And thinking about Lost. Oh self. :(

I just got to the bit in book 8 of The Dresden Files where Bob gives Harry this nice, concise, clear explanation of what would happen if the Gatekeeper created a paradox by warning Harry about something that happened in the future, and Harry basically went "...idgi."

...Harry would totally be one of those people who don't get "what happened happened" on Lost.

Speaking of Lost, I don't even fucking know what to say about this week's episode. I just have so many feelings thoughts, and no idea how to explain them. I mean, the difference between flashback!Jacob and now!Jacob, and other spoilerier things.

What I do know, however, is that I have to stop fucking saying "This is going to be fucking hilarious" because, let me tell you internet, the fucking hilarious is ALWAYS interspersed with TONS of DDDDDDDDDD: when I say that.

Seriously, I just. Oh internet, that episode. :(

I had many strange and marvelous things to tell you, internet, but I have forgotten them by now. Alas.

I did learn some great things today, though! Observe: -The dog comes when I call. Or at least, he did when he got loose this morning.
-I only need to be putting in half the effort I do on my english papers to get As
-Pecorino romano: not the best addition to stuffed shells

apocabigbang has inspired me to pull out an apocalypse fic I've been poking at for, well. A while. Unfortunately, I realized that it's going to require me to rewatch all the episodes of Burn Notice where Chuck Finley is mentioned and take a lot of notes. I've already eliminated most of season one and 3/4 of the first four episodes of season 2 because I found transcripts for them. But, hey, that means I only have to watch around 32 episodes instead of 44. SHUSH IT IS TOTALLY A VICTORY.

I could just download subs and ctrl+f for Finley, but that's more a pain int he ass than spending nearly a day and a half straight watching episodes.

But, let me tell you internet, I am kind of pissed that there's not site that lists information like that. After I go through, I'm going to make one. And then I'm not going to post it anywhere, because it will make me feel good to be all "IT'S MINE! AAAAAAAAAAAAAALL MINE!! I HAD TO DO THE WORK TO FIND THESE EPISODES, THEREFORE YOU DO TOO!"

(I like how I refuse to do research for fic ~on principle~, unless that research is rewatching the show. Nice, self. Nice.)

IN OTHER NEWS, IT IS ALMOST (it is already? ihni when it comes on) RICHARD O'CLOCK!! Too bad I will be watching tomorrow instead of tonight. :( I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT, THOUGH. THIS SHIT IS GONNA BE EPIC.

So, yesterday, brianne came over and we stuffed ourselves at Friendlys, made >:( faces about fandom a lot, and watched a shitload of skating stuff. All in all, a totally awesome day. :D

Then, shadowkitty and I watched Lost and, man. I was bored through most of the ep. Plus, the dialogue during the flashsideways was horrible. I couldn't even enjoy the buddy cop bits because it was so stilted and awkward and awful. D: D: D:

AND THEN INTERNET. AND THEN we put on "The 12 Step Job" because it's my favorite fucking episode in the entire god damn world. And my laptop overheated and crashed, which it does something like once a day. So while I was waiting for it to cool down enough to turn back on, I decided to attack the fan with my canned air to clean out some of the cat hair that was undoubtedly lodged in there.

And then. And then. I turned my laptop on, and under five minutes later it crashed again. And I did it again. And again. And again. And then I raged around for a while because I either broke my god damn fan or fucking jammed it somehow. And it was fucking 11pm and I wanted to watch Leverage and I couldn't because I had to fucking take apart my god damn computer and figure out what the fuck was wrong with it.

So I fucking did, and internet, let me tell you, I could not possibly hate Toshiba more than I already do. I can take apart a Dell laptop with my eyes closed in under five minutes because it's simple and straightforward. Take out all the removable parts, pop the button board cover, remove the keyboard and screen and internal screws, unhook everything, flip over and unscrew everything, pop it open, done. FIVE MINUTES, TOPS. It took me an entire fucking hour to take apart this fucking laptop. It was like,

"Take out all removable parts which takes forever because the cover of the DVD drive is fucking stuck so it won't pop out, fight to pop off the button board cover because the hooks that go over the laptop hinges are fucking jammed, remove keyboard and internal screws, try to remove the screen except I can't because the fucking laptop repair place I took it didn't make sure the screws were threading properly so they were fucking jammed, say fuck it and unhook everything, flip over and unscrew all screws (and realize that half of them are missing because of the fucking laptop repair place again), try to separate the pieces, realize you missed a screw and figure out the general location, remove the button board, that doesn't help, finally realize that the ROBSON module and the wireless card are attached to the fucking casing so I have to remove them, finally get everything opened and take out the motherboard."

INTERNET, I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO MURDER SOMETHING. IT TOOK A GOD DAMN HOUR. And it turned out that yes, I had managed to jam the fan by blowing two huge clumps of cat hair right into the perfect place to jam the fucking fan. By the time I had everything put back together and decided to stop trying to figure out where the extra screws went (seriously, I have a massive collection of laptop screws because I always forget to screw something back in) it was 12:30 in the fucking morning.

And I was too angry at the world to go back to sleep.

SO THAT WAS MY DAY YESTERDAY, HOW WAS YOURS?

Also, I've done all that I'm going to do of the ship meme! (READ: FUCK YOU EPON I AM NOT GOING TO DO THOSE TWO EVER >:( ) Here are Harley/Ivy, Aeryn/Crichton, Jessica Jones/Luke Cage, Parker/Hardison/Eliot, Ben/Sofie and Ben/Sofie 2, Tim/Julie, ladySmoker/ladyHunter, and Ben/Juliet and Ben/Juliet 2.

I had to use a combination of Avidemux and Cinelerra because I was too impatient to figure out how to clip shit in Cinelerra, but after a couple hours of fucking around yesterday, I made this. Which just makes me lol and lol and lol every time that I watch it.

It took three days (because I could only work on it for a couple hours each day), but I finally finished the laptop bag I was making. I fucked around with the Ashley pattern here to make it big enough (and a couple minor alterations to take into account that I was using 2½" strips) and used about half of a package of Berry Bliss Bali Pops.

( Check out how awesome this shit is. )

NGL INTERNET, I LOVE IT A LOT. SO MUCH THAT I WILL EVEN CARRY IT AROUND WITH ME IN PUBLIC. The colors are fucking awesome and if I'd put more thought into it instead of just throwing shit together, I could have made it look like a pond scene, going from muck to sky. Which, uh, I did do on the inner pockets, but I am too lazy to take pictures of those. Also, one of the pockets is big enough to hold straight knitting needles, and a couple of the smaller pockets are for DPNs and basically, it is great.

Also, I've answered a bunch of the headcanon meme comments! Parker, Bucky, Richard, Luke Cage, and that clip from Smokin' Aces.

OKAY COMPANY HERE TIME TO GO.

I had to use a combination of Avidemux and Cinelerra because I was too impatient to figure out how to clip shit in Cinelerra, but after a couple hours of fucking around yesterday, I made this. Which just makes me lol and lol and lol every time that I watch it.

It took three days (because I could only work on it for a couple hours each day), but I finally finished the laptop bag I was making. I fucked around with the Ashley pattern here to make it big enough (and a couple minor alterations to take into account that I was using 2½" strips) and used about half of a package of Berry Bliss Bali Pops.

( Check out how awesome this shit is. )

NGL INTERNET, I LOVE IT A LOT. SO MUCH THAT I WILL EVEN CARRY IT AROUND WITH ME IN PUBLIC. The colors are fucking awesome and if I'd put more thought into it instead of just throwing shit together, I could have made it look like a pond scene, going from muck to sky. Which, uh, I did do on the inner pockets, but I am too lazy to take pictures of those. Also, one of the pockets is big enough to hold straight knitting needles, and a couple of the smaller pockets are for DPNs and basically, it is great.

Also, I've answered a bunch of the headcanon meme comments! Parker, Bucky, Richard, Luke Cage, and that clip from Smokin' Aces.

OKAY COMPANY HERE TIME TO GO.