I'm almost done with Constellation and man. Man!! What a show!! I figured out what was going on fairly early but keeping track of things was more difficult than I expected it to be.

Partially because I was spinning while watching, which meant I had to look away every few minutes to draw out more fiber, and then look back while I was letting it wind onto the bobbin. I'm about halfway? Maybe a third of the way? Done with the second single. Can't wait to ply this, wash it, and move on to a different fiber. I'm enjoying spinning it well enough, but I still want to be done? Yanno?

Work is terrible in new and exciting ways. All our work is from either federal or state governments and uh. Uh. It's not grate bob.

I desperately want to start a new knitting project but alas. It's a year of finishing. Not a year of starting. I need to work on this shawl for the rest of the month but I am so tired of it? I think? Or maybe I am just tired of doing such long rows. I'm about halfway through the charts but uh. lol. lmao. I did two extra repeats of the increasing charts which were maybe one or two too many. Rows are just so long now. And getting longer.

In any case. Still haven't heard from hematology&oncology to get an appointment. Infuriating. Maybe they will call today? I seem to remember another department only goes through referrals on Fridays so. I dunno. I oughta go write something when this show is over, but i think I will knit a purl back row on the shawl instead and dream about starting a new sweatervest.

Truly, I am so tired all the time. I'm very anemic and have enlarged lymph nodes, so my doctor is sending me to hematology&oncology (luckily the same department) because she has no idea what's going on. The iron pills aren't fixing the anemia. The enlarged lymph nodes, based on the CT scan, aren't going down. If I have cancer I'm going to be so mad.

I'm pointedly not stressing about it though because there's nothing I can do. I'm waiting on the hematology&oncology department to call me and set up an appointment. Until then...

Spinning is going well. I think I'm getting better at spinning an even single? Or at least at pausing to fix bits that are too thick. idk. Knitting is going less well but I don't want to talk about how fucking long the rows for this shawl are lmao

The dogs freed themselves from the bedroom last night like the assholes they are and trashed the house a lil. But whatever, the house is already trashed because I'm just too damn fatigued to clean anything ever. I need someone to come help me get it back to a Base State so I can hire someone to come in and clean every couple weeks, but alas. I don't live near people I trust to do that.

I've asked for two weeks off in July so I can go visit Shoi&Em in California. I'm going to drive across the dang country and I'm not going to let anything stop me this time. Every time I try to go visit them something catastrophic happens before I can leave, so. Last time, it was mice eating my car up bad enough that the insurance totaled it. If mice eat up my new car I'm going to lose it.

Okay, there are my disjointed thoughts for the day. I'm going to go back to reading Knitting in the Old Way now so I can get better at designing my own knitwear given everything on ravelry is stunningly boring nowadays. God people's taste in knitwear has turned to shit.

lol whoops

My 100 Days of Spinning Long Draw challenge is not going well. I'm also trying to knit every day and that is going poorly too at the moment. I skipped my meds for one (1) day and now I am in a tailspin. Why are psych meds like this???

It doesn't help that the world at large and the world at small are on fire, I'm sure.

Grem, my best boy, has taken a fork that was used to eat pulled pork from the sink and is carrying it around. He's alternating following Saoirse, my best girl, with it and growling at her with taking a short nap on various pieces of furniture with it still in his mouth. Hilarious. If the floor weren't filthy I would show you a picture.

I suppose I should spin some yarn now. I'm working on getting through 4oz of a white and light pink 50-50 merino silk blend. It's a delight to spin, especially since I'm trying to spin it thin for laceweight yarn. But ughhh I'm still so bad at spinning in general even though I've been doing it for years. Sometimes, you can self teach yourself things easy (knitting). Sometimes, you need to put actual effort into learning and improving (spinning). The latter type of being self taught sucks ass.

Yeah! Daily! Why bother with anything unless you do it daily! New Year New Me!

lmao

I've been watching a lot of Nikita and it's tragic that season 2 was so good because nothing afterward can live up to it. It is also tragic that like basically no one who writes fic ships the same OT3 as me because I only have one (1) fic to read and I'm tired of reading it over and over.

Quality ot3 though. Absolutely quality.

I'm thinking of starting to work on my Star Trek Snew fic again. I hit a point with it before where I thought the plot was incredibly stupid but you now what? I might be wrong. I might be incredibly wrong.

ha ha ha.

It would be so silly if I wrote a Star Trek: Strange New Worlds fic based off a single episode that one of the characters doesn't even survive. So silly. I shouldn't do that.

But... what if I did...

Nothing makes it so clear that my practical skills lag behind my theoretical knowledge as trying to train Grem to do weird shit. He's so smart, my clicks are just not precise enough for him to figure out what I want.

(I am not looking for advice unless like this is your day job; I'm just complaining/bragging.)

He'll willingly put his paws on the scratch board, sure. But he hasn't even tried to scratch it. I've showed him what I want, he's watched Saoirse do it, so we've tried modeling. I've tried shaping a scratch, but lol. lmao, even.

Saoirse, meanwhile, figured it out in about ten minutes. Two training sessions, and she'll scratch it with one paw multiple times in a row for a treat. Most of her front paw nails are so much shorter than they were, thank god. Now we're going to work on both paws, like she's digging.

Meanwhile, Grem is like, u want me to stand on it, rite??? Rite??? Just stand here???

No, dog, no. Please just scratch it. Please.

( And now, complaining about people trying to be helpful because I am ungrateful )

Anyway. Hi, how is everyone?

God designing knitwear is so freaking hard?? Like I know exactly what I want in my head and it's gorgeous. But the math... the math!!

I can't rip this back again because the qiviut won't handle it. It's a wee bit snug but that'll be fine. Only I'm trying to figure out how big the thumb gusset needs to be and utterly failing. Why is there no obvious and easy to find website or book that tells you "make a thumb gusset X inches by X inches" so I can convert that to rows and stitches?

Hell, I'd even accept a number of rows/stitches and a gauge that I could convert to inches and then match my gauge with this lace-weight yarn. (Which is why I need it in inches. No one makes laceweight colorowork mittens that are on size 0s. God.

( Anyway, here's what I have so far: )

Adding to canon, why I dare say why not!

Challenger #4: In your own space, add something to your fandom’s canon. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

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Aw yeah, this challenge involves my fave thing: complaining!

Challenge #3: In your own space, Scream Into the Void. Get it all out.

Hi, can we talk about relative fic popularity for a minute? Because it never ceases to make me all het up that one fic of mine is more popular than another fic of mine that is objectively better and also I love it more so it deserves to be more popular than everything else.

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Anyway, now I'm all het up again. Hope y'all are having a good day.

Anyone else doing the Fannish 50 challenge? I figure, given the number of fics I read, I can probably come up with a minimum of 50 fic recs.

Best episodes of DS9, ordered by the amount I enjoyed them.

50 times I listen to the podfic of The Reasons For Us and what I'm doing at the time.

s2g I'm going to post more this year or die trying.

Fandom Snowflake time, folks!!! And today's... today's is a doozy for someone who is bad at things like "convincing other people to do stuff" and "remembering things about TV shows" and such.

Challenge #2: In your own space, write a promo, manifesto or primer for your fave character, ship or fandom.

Y'all. Y'all, let me introduce you to the show that has straightbaited me the hardest since I don't even know when: Debris.

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Whelp, it's January which means I once again am thinking to myself "man I really wish I was on DW more." So this is me doing something about that for the next, oh, week or so until I forget again.

Maybe it's time for a redesign...

Good morning Fic In A Box person!

I hope you don't hate my suggestions and I just want to say that I want you to have fun, so don't feel like you have to use anything I say besides avoiding my DNWs. That is the only condition on my love for you for making me things.

( Whoops forgot to put this under a cut )

<3,
me

Stretch yourself a little and try something new. Go play in a new fandom or with a new pairing. Try working in a new medium. Or check out some fanworks that are new to you. (The recs from Day 2 might be a good place to start.)

Today, being the cool kid I am and continuing to do Fandom Snowflake long after it has finished, I read a bunch of fic I've never read before.

Which, I suppose, is cheating because I do that most days. I try to read nearly every deckerstar fic that gets completed on ao3, which means I usually read a fic or two a day and save the long ones for later. It's a mixed bag, but I am weak and in desperate need of more fic. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like everyone in my fandom i don't have to like ev

I feel like I used to have a lot more thoughts before I got involved with twitter and tumblr. Now my brain is empty half the time and I have nothing to say about anything. It's unsettling.

Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them.

Got this one covered because I try to comment on every single finished Lucifer fic that I read. So I'm commenting to people I've never interacted with before almost every day. It started out as stressful, because I'm bad at comments, but I've kinda stopped caring how bad I am at comments and just, you know. Made myself be okay with the only thing I can come up with is "Loved it!" sometimes.

I feel better about myself now that I'm leaving comments, because I'm no longer a part of the problem. Before I was feeling incredibly guilty about that.