Challenge #6

Top 10 Challenge.

I can't even think of ten things that I eat regularly??? Never even mind fandom things??? Shit.

Top 10 Reasons to Watch Debris (and Write Me Fic)

1. I love it, which, really, should be all you need to know because my taste is impeccable.


2. It's bad scifi, but in the fun kind of way.


3. There is so much chemistry between Bryan and Finola.


4. There are so many secrets.


5. Nothing is explained. Like ever. It is ripe for fic explaining things.


6. The episodes are so totally out of order. I refuse to believe anything else. You, too, can join me in this conspiracy theory and try to sort out a reasonable order.


7. I can watch it while I'm high. Most TV shows and movies and youtube and everything, when I'm high, I get intensely aware that everyone is acting. Like it ruins my suspension of disbelief so bad. There are two (2) shows I can rewatch when I'm high without my suspension of disbelief being ruined, and one of them is Debris.


8. The ending is so open. So so so open. It is primed for another season or like. So much fic speculating where they were going.


9. Multiverse shenanigans. Just, I can not describe them without major spoilers, but you will know it when you see it and you, too, will be like muchsthescream.jpg.


10. The story of the penguin and the soldier. It will make you insane. You will listen to it and it will forever change your brain pathways. It will live rent-free in your head for all time.

Okay uh that was easier than I thought.

Challenge #5

In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it and include a link to your wishlist if you feel comfortable doing so.

Oh boy oh boy, a wishlist! I am so good at those! My brain does not immediately go blank when asked to compose one!

Okay, a selfish thing I want: art for each chapter of my & my friend's Lucifer hitman!au. I'm slowly working on commissioning it, and I've got I think three? Four? Chapters done. But slowly is the key word here and man is it expensive to commission art and like. Actually pay the artist fairly!

A less selfish wish: More! Debris! Fic! Give me more Debris fic! Long fic! Plotty fic! I am d e s p e r a t e for more Debris fic, especially fic that continues the story. Give me all the post-canon fic in the world. I just. I loved that show so much. The story of the penguin and the soldier makes me insane. I forget about the back half of the season all the time because that two-parter felt like a finale. I am convinced the episodes are out of order and if I just watch it enough times I can put them in an order that makes the developing relationship between Bryan and Finola make sense. I start rewatching every time I get high because that is all my high brain thinks about. It aired in March 2021 and I am still obsessed, almost five years later. Please god someone write me fic.

A third thing. Hmmm. I would like fandom to go back to feeling more interactive. It feels like before AO3 kudos became a thing, and we didn't have hit counters, that more people commented on fic even if they were just tiny short comments. It feels like people replied to day-in-the-life posts/tweets/whatever more. It feels like there were more conversations and less shouting into the void, regardless of whether it was you as the OP or you replying to someone else.

And I'm using "feels" deliberately here because it probably isn't true!! It probably isn't true. Fandom is bigger than ever, so it really can't be true, I don't think. But it sure does feel true! And, in the end, that is what is important to me. Feelings may not be facts but I think in lowstakes situations like this it's okay if they are.

Challenge #4: Rec The Contents Of Your Last Page

Any website that you like, be it fanfiction, art, social media, or something a bit more eccentric!

You know, I didn't think I had anything to rec for this. And I don't, really, I spend my time on AO3, bsky, mastodon (blorbo.social is the instance I'm on), and ravelry.

HOWEVER.

Two things to rec:

If you are into porny fandom bingo games and either Playboyy or Heated Rivalry, BOY HAVE I GOT A SITE FOR YOU. My friend admins it, but I built Fandom Bingo for him. I don't know about plans for future bingo games, but the two that are up there are great.

(Uh. If it's broken. Please let me know. I think I fixed all the bugs, but who knows. It's a website. There will always be bugs.)

SECOND:

Hey remember geocities? And then the whole thing was cruelly shut down and we lost tons of fan websites? WELL. There's this thing called neocities now and I have a webbed site there where I am slowly uploading my fic. Slowly. So very slowly. It's only got a handful at the moment, mostly A-Team (2010) but whatever. It's growing. Slowly.

Oh, and THIRD:

I haven't joined it yet but there's a fic webring that exists. So, yanno. Have fun with that everyone!

Challenge #3: Write a love letter to fandom. It might be to fandom in general, to a particular fandom, favourite character, anything at all.

I! Am! So! Behind!

Okay this is probably more a love-letter to having friends than it is to fandom as a whole because, uh, you know how some large percentage of anything is garbage? That is true about fandom-as-a-whole, too.

But this is not about that. This is about finding your people.

It is (unfortunately?) not an exaggeration to say that without fandom, I would have like. No friends. I have met every single friend I have through fandom in one way or another. I am, after all, essentially a recluse in real life. And, I mean, once you're out of school how do you even make friends as an adult? Who knows.

(I mean, you leave the house and do things with groups of strangers, and then sometimes strangers turn into friends. But I digress.)

This is, perhaps, curmudgeonly of me, but I find great swathes of fandom intensely annoying and/or angry-making. What can I say! People have wrong opinions and put them out there on the internet for everyone to see!

The cool thing about having friends, though, is you can use them to curate your experience. Between blocking at the drop of a hat and mostly only following friends, I have gone from an Angry Youth, getting all het up about things, to a Normal Emotions Adult, who does not see things to get het up at.

The other cool as shit thing about friends is that you can convince them to join your fandoms and then you don't have to interact with people outside of your friend gr-

Oh my god. Am I also a recluse online??? Fuck. What the fuck. I need to think about this. Post aborted for today. wtf.

I refuse to start forgetting to post here in January. I absolutely refuse. I'm going to make it to February if it kills me.

Writing is going well! On writing days, I'm averaging almost 2k. It's great and I'm above where I need to be to hit my wordcount goal (40k on a specific project) for the month. The goal used to be 30k on a specific project, finishing it, but uh. It's gonna take more than that to hit the end. So, hopefully it'll be done at 40k. I'm 60% of the way through the wordcount, and I think????? I'm 60% through the story?

idk

Is anyone else extremely stressed about what we're going to replace discord with if it goes AI? Is anyone else extremely stressed that some friends are going to refuse to move and you won't be able to talk to them anymore? :\ I vote we all go back to using IRC. For the record. Stop complicating things with icons and voice chat and etc. I just want to do typeytypey with my friends.

(I'm the_wanlorn over there, also ftr)

Anyway. Back to writing probably. Later my gators.

Didn't take my meds for two days (I was out*), subsequently didn't write anything for two days. Took them around noon today and just wrote 1700 words in one go. jfc. Will I learn anything from this? Absolutely not are you kidding??

Grem's appointment for x-rays was set for tomorrow but the wholeass office has the flu or something so they've rescheduled it for Tuesday. At this point I don't even care like the limp is neither going away nor getting noticeably worse, I have enough NSAIDs and gabapentin to last until then, the weird joint lump the emergency vet metaphorically shrugged about is not getting bigger, so whatever! Whatever!!! I'm going to murder someone!!!!!

* Calling the pharmacy to ask them to fill my adderall prescription is always a huge Ordeal in my brain because I always have to

1) talk to the front desk, they can not find the prescription even though I am saying the magic words
2) get transferred to the pharmacist when I insist it is there
3) say the magic words to the pharmacist (it was written X months ago and dated for this month), who immediately finds it and puts it in to be filled

I hate it so much. So so so much.

Challenge #2: Pets of Fandom

Loosely defined! Post about your pets, pets from your canon, anything you want!

Forgot to do this yesterday (Saturday) because I was at the emergency vet with Gremlin Steve! As one does! He's """""""""fine""""""""" in that the emergency vet said that x-rays can wait until Monday at my regular vet, he is not fine in that he's been limping for a month, month and a half, and the (regular) vet thought it was because of a split toenail that then split further (a valid conclusion) but now he has a lump of swelling on his wrist joint. So into the emergency vet we went.

The thing is, the e-vet decided it was nbd based on Grem letting him move his leg and flex the joint, and how he didn't have a temp. Grem will not let me even touch his leg so like clearly it hurts which to me says something is up. At least they sent me home with pain meds for him?

Ugh. Anyway. I have more pets but Grem is my problem (expensive) child.

lol i've completely forgotten how to write coherent and cohesive long posts. This is why civilization is the way it is.

A series of updates:

( Pets (cw: pet death) )
( Crafting )
( Writing )
Okay, I have successfully posted. I'm gonna get back to writing. Farewell folks!

GUESS WHAT TIME IT IS

is it time for my yearly promise that I will post here more, starting with the Snowflake Challenge, only to abandon DW again sometime in February?

Yes.

( Snowflake Challenge - Day 1 )

I'm almost done with Constellation and man. Man!! What a show!! I figured out what was going on fairly early but keeping track of things was more difficult than I expected it to be.

Partially because I was spinning while watching, which meant I had to look away every few minutes to draw out more fiber, and then look back while I was letting it wind onto the bobbin. I'm about halfway? Maybe a third of the way? Done with the second single. Can't wait to ply this, wash it, and move on to a different fiber. I'm enjoying spinning it well enough, but I still want to be done? Yanno?

Work is terrible in new and exciting ways. All our work is from either federal or state governments and uh. Uh. It's not grate bob.

I desperately want to start a new knitting project but alas. It's a year of finishing. Not a year of starting. I need to work on this shawl for the rest of the month but I am so tired of it? I think? Or maybe I am just tired of doing such long rows. I'm about halfway through the charts but uh. lol. lmao. I did two extra repeats of the increasing charts which were maybe one or two too many. Rows are just so long now. And getting longer.

In any case. Still haven't heard from hematology&oncology to get an appointment. Infuriating. Maybe they will call today? I seem to remember another department only goes through referrals on Fridays so. I dunno. I oughta go write something when this show is over, but i think I will knit a purl back row on the shawl instead and dream about starting a new sweatervest.

Truly, I am so tired all the time. I'm very anemic and have enlarged lymph nodes, so my doctor is sending me to hematology&oncology (luckily the same department) because she has no idea what's going on. The iron pills aren't fixing the anemia. The enlarged lymph nodes, based on the CT scan, aren't going down. If I have cancer I'm going to be so mad.

I'm pointedly not stressing about it though because there's nothing I can do. I'm waiting on the hematology&oncology department to call me and set up an appointment. Until then...

Spinning is going well. I think I'm getting better at spinning an even single? Or at least at pausing to fix bits that are too thick. idk. Knitting is going less well but I don't want to talk about how fucking long the rows for this shawl are lmao

The dogs freed themselves from the bedroom last night like the assholes they are and trashed the house a lil. But whatever, the house is already trashed because I'm just too damn fatigued to clean anything ever. I need someone to come help me get it back to a Base State so I can hire someone to come in and clean every couple weeks, but alas. I don't live near people I trust to do that.

I've asked for two weeks off in July so I can go visit Shoi&Em in California. I'm going to drive across the dang country and I'm not going to let anything stop me this time. Every time I try to go visit them something catastrophic happens before I can leave, so. Last time, it was mice eating my car up bad enough that the insurance totaled it. If mice eat up my new car I'm going to lose it.

Okay, there are my disjointed thoughts for the day. I'm going to go back to reading Knitting in the Old Way now so I can get better at designing my own knitwear given everything on ravelry is stunningly boring nowadays. God people's taste in knitwear has turned to shit.

lol whoops

My 100 Days of Spinning Long Draw challenge is not going well. I'm also trying to knit every day and that is going poorly too at the moment. I skipped my meds for one (1) day and now I am in a tailspin. Why are psych meds like this???

It doesn't help that the world at large and the world at small are on fire, I'm sure.

Grem, my best boy, has taken a fork that was used to eat pulled pork from the sink and is carrying it around. He's alternating following Saoirse, my best girl, with it and growling at her with taking a short nap on various pieces of furniture with it still in his mouth. Hilarious. If the floor weren't filthy I would show you a picture.

I suppose I should spin some yarn now. I'm working on getting through 4oz of a white and light pink 50-50 merino silk blend. It's a delight to spin, especially since I'm trying to spin it thin for laceweight yarn. But ughhh I'm still so bad at spinning in general even though I've been doing it for years. Sometimes, you can self teach yourself things easy (knitting). Sometimes, you need to put actual effort into learning and improving (spinning). The latter type of being self taught sucks ass.

Yeah! Daily! Why bother with anything unless you do it daily! New Year New Me!

lmao

I've been watching a lot of Nikita and it's tragic that season 2 was so good because nothing afterward can live up to it. It is also tragic that like basically no one who writes fic ships the same OT3 as me because I only have one (1) fic to read and I'm tired of reading it over and over.

Quality ot3 though. Absolutely quality.

I'm thinking of starting to work on my Star Trek Snew fic again. I hit a point with it before where I thought the plot was incredibly stupid but you now what? I might be wrong. I might be incredibly wrong.

ha ha ha.

It would be so silly if I wrote a Star Trek: Strange New Worlds fic based off a single episode that one of the characters doesn't even survive. So silly. I shouldn't do that.

But... what if I did...

Nothing makes it so clear that my practical skills lag behind my theoretical knowledge as trying to train Grem to do weird shit. He's so smart, my clicks are just not precise enough for him to figure out what I want.

(I am not looking for advice unless like this is your day job; I'm just complaining/bragging.)

He'll willingly put his paws on the scratch board, sure. But he hasn't even tried to scratch it. I've showed him what I want, he's watched Saoirse do it, so we've tried modeling. I've tried shaping a scratch, but lol. lmao, even.

Saoirse, meanwhile, figured it out in about ten minutes. Two training sessions, and she'll scratch it with one paw multiple times in a row for a treat. Most of her front paw nails are so much shorter than they were, thank god. Now we're going to work on both paws, like she's digging.

Meanwhile, Grem is like, u want me to stand on it, rite??? Rite??? Just stand here???

No, dog, no. Please just scratch it. Please.

( And now, complaining about people trying to be helpful because I am ungrateful )

Anyway. Hi, how is everyone?

God designing knitwear is so freaking hard?? Like I know exactly what I want in my head and it's gorgeous. But the math... the math!!

I can't rip this back again because the qiviut won't handle it. It's a wee bit snug but that'll be fine. Only I'm trying to figure out how big the thumb gusset needs to be and utterly failing. Why is there no obvious and easy to find website or book that tells you "make a thumb gusset X inches by X inches" so I can convert that to rows and stitches?

Hell, I'd even accept a number of rows/stitches and a gauge that I could convert to inches and then match my gauge with this lace-weight yarn. (Which is why I need it in inches. No one makes laceweight colorowork mittens that are on size 0s. God.

( Anyway, here's what I have so far: )

Adding to canon, why I dare say why not!

Challenger #4: In your own space, add something to your fandom’s canon. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

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Aw yeah, this challenge involves my fave thing: complaining!

Challenge #3: In your own space, Scream Into the Void. Get it all out.

Hi, can we talk about relative fic popularity for a minute? Because it never ceases to make me all het up that one fic of mine is more popular than another fic of mine that is objectively better and also I love it more so it deserves to be more popular than everything else.

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Anyway, now I'm all het up again. Hope y'all are having a good day.

Anyone else doing the Fannish 50 challenge? I figure, given the number of fics I read, I can probably come up with a minimum of 50 fic recs.

Best episodes of DS9, ordered by the amount I enjoyed them.

50 times I listen to the podfic of The Reasons For Us and what I'm doing at the time.

s2g I'm going to post more this year or die trying.